I'm back again.

I'm back in Norway.
First impression is that everything is so grey and everything looks so sad, it's unpersonal and steril. And it's so quiet!!! It's a lot of people around me, but I don't think that I've experienced such a silence in 5 months..

I want to go back. Right now. I just shouldn't have left. People doesn't talk together, people sit down next to eachother without saying a word, without even smiling to eachother. I tried to smile to someone, all I got in return was a strange look from that person and he left. People are so cold. I already miss the friendliness of the tanzanians, the joy og life they show, the way they great everyone nomatter if they know them or not. They made me feel home there, they were so welcoming towards me. Here people look so angry, they dont smile, everyone is bussy with their own stuff, it doesn't seem like people care about eachother. It sounds like one of those africa klisjes, but it's true, it's so true!

I feel empty inside. I don't know if I should cry or laugh of all this. It's so far away. I've been crying for 3 days and I'm tired of crying. I don't know what to feel. Okey, it's going to be nice to see everyone again, family and friends, it's going to be very good to take a nice shower where the water comes from above and on top of that is hot, put on clean clothes, it's going to be good to not have to tuck in the mosquito net everyday and not to live with coacroaches and lizards, and it's going to be great not to eat rice and beans everyday. But then again why does all this matter when I was having such a great time, when I had people that cared about me around me, when I was so happy? Absolutely nothing!

I want to go back home to Tanzania!